So far I haven't learned a single thing from my past failures. At 8 years of attempting to learn, with the full intention of becoming a professional illustration, I have not a single drawing that I like, or that I am not ashamed of. I can barely stand the work I crate. It's horrifically bad and I don't even want ownership of it nor do I want to acknowledge it or to be associated with it in any manner.
As I look over my own gallery I don't see progress, instead I see the same mistakes over and over again. Not just any mistakes but, the ones I have been making an active effort at improving. I tried to improve accuracy in general and yet everything I draw ends up as a Misshapen mess. None of the angles are correct and not only do my subjects end up as amorphis blobs but, it takes me several hours to go through these. Not just a few hours but, usually an unreasonable amount (even not comparing myself to other). When I try to proportion a person or an object correctly, everything ends up terribly inaccurate. I've been though "Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain" but, it didn't seem to help. When I try figure drawing my figures do not resemble the subjects in any manner. The results of my work barely resemble human beings. I'm still a loss of where I'm going wrong. I've been through pretty much every Andrew Loomis and George Brigman book yet I can't seem to actually use any of the information from the books on any of what I draw. I've been through several life drawing courses and I feel like I have learned nothing at all.
A lot of people claim there are no shortcuts but, I can say for certain that I have found a much longer and more inefficient; simply practice and try to learn from your mistakes.
So far self teaching isn't working for me and I can't seem to follow tutorials well enough to actually make use of their information. I can even watch videos, attempt what the creator did in the video and learn absolutely nothing from it. Even repeat viewings don't seem to change things. College hasn't helped at all, the instructors were awful. All they did was praise me and refused to provide even the slightest hint of critique. The classes outside of it were basically glorified, overpriced hug boxes. No matter where I went the instructors would dodge my questions and tell me I was doing fine. I can find tons of online courses but, I have not a single review (not counting testimonials) on the quality or content of the course. I'm skeptical for the but, they might just be my only hope when it comes to drawing. Maybe I need to try hiring someone again but, how would I even do that? How do I filter people out so I don't get the same type of people who taught my college classes and how much do I offer them per hour?